2020: The year that was
My name is Lisa and I am a control freak. Thanks to 2020, however, I'm working my way toward recovery.
Before the pandemic, I was a person who loved to plan. I had a big paper planner filled with tabs for this and that, different colors for different tasks, and charts for just about everything.
I was on every committee. I was the first to volunteer for everything. If there was a project, I was heading it up. I got things done.
When the pandemic first made its way to Iowa, I was a complete trainwreck. I spent my nights lying awake worrying about absolutely everything.
How should we change our interractions with our parents? What if they got sick? Would our kids be able to finish the school year? Would our oldest graduate and get to go to college? What about sports?
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't control any of these things. No plans could be made. I had lost control of so many things. I threw my beloved paper planner in the trash sometime in May.
Then my youngest son suffered a horrible hand injury in an accident early in the summer. He was very lucky that after a terrifying day, a scary surgery, and a healthy dose of physical therapy, he is left with a gnarly scar but no permanent damage. He lost his baseball season. He kept his life and his hand.
So many things that had seemed so important before no longer were.
Meanwhile, graduation was in June. Prom was in August. The changing plans would've made me crazy before, but no more. It all worked out perfectly.
I'm still on my fair share of committees, even heading up a few, but I've learned to delegate rather than control. It will be fine if someone else heads up the can drive. It's not a big deal.
Now my oldest is off at college in another state. I miss him but I'm so glad he gets to go and spread his wings.
His brothers are enjoying their senior and sophomore years. They're both on student council and academic team, and in FFA and the fall musical. My senior was elected student body president. Best of all, the brothers got to play an entire football season together (that's them pictured above). We are relishing every minute.
This year has been so hard for so many people. Looking back, I have a lot to be thankful for. I'm grateful for healing, bonus family time, and perspective.
Here's hoping 2021's lessons come easier.